The Breaker of My Life

Ordinary people can't always run fast. Someday, we will stop. If we stop forever, we will die, but if we stop for a while, we are presented an opportunity to recharge.

I woke up this morning around 04:40 in the morning. This is because yesterday's patient chart was completely pushed back. I always finish charting in one day, because I get paid more if I chart a patient in 24 hours.

A thought came to my mind while I was doing my laundry in the bathroom, “Isn't my back pain the fuse in my life?” My daughter lives in New York, and I have a lot of stuff to give her because I couldn’t give those things to her at her wedding. I refused her suggestion to buy a plane ticket, and I drove instead. I drove non-stop from Dallas to New York. I drove most of the time at night and my husband drove during the day, so we arrived in 38 hours. Because it was the time of COVID-19, I barely went to the bathroom. Also, I packed my lunch instead, so I didn't even go to a restaurant. On the way back and forth, I found out that I had so much time in the car, and since I'm over 60, it's not like it used to be, so my back hurt a lot. If your back doesn't hurt so much, you'll have to live a hectic life tied to work. There is no rest from dawn to midnight with back pain. I am grateful to the Lord for my back pain, because it is the pain that rests my soul.

My husband had advanced to the point of death from stomach cancer. But by the grace of the Lord, he is still alive. I can hear my husband breathing next to me. Being close to me without dying is a great grace the Lord has given me. Isn't this what happiness is all about?

Because life’s fuse is so short, reflection is a good opportunity to recharge our souls.